Monday, January 31, 2005
after reading few ppl hu r my fren's fren blog.. sad blogging..do we really hav to suffer in this world..y is the world so unfair...
moreover i was listening to yorkshire balland on my winamp.. to those hu duno YB is nt a ballet song.. it turns out to b a sad song.. sembwindianx shld koe..=] .. i wanted to cry..
does mi n him need to result to tis? y will he say that.. y? as a fren i really duno.. we mayb fren for the past 3 years.. since i was sec 2 but.. i may nt koe him well.. but i cherish every moment i had with him since i koe i had fallen in love with him.. i tried to turn back..which i couldn..to make sure.. i hav time being with him.. i koe i m selfish..but.. *speechless*
try to refresh back any memories i had with him n my fren.. but i jus cant stop thinkin of him..the words he say jus now.. if i koe tis ll really happen.. i lln hav told u i like u.. selfish of mi..i koe..but i m really wondering.. hav u tink of mi..as a fren's feelings?
everyday in class i had to face the desktop cover of mine.. which wrote almost every detail i ahv spend with him..since 12 jan.. till the lastest entry on the cover on 26 Jan.. this wed ll b the 3rd week since i confess.. to those hu dun really koe mi.. might think i m bold that i confess it..but do u koe.. i m weak in heart..
in sck..i hav to pretend to b happy.. look forward to recess so i could see him.. yet during recess i hav to peek at him.. hopin he didn caught mi lookin at him.. i koe.. the days mi n him can b together is nt more than 1 or 2 month(s) le..as i say..after april...i duno wad m i goin to do.. the life without him..
i rmb the day he made mi damn angry n fed up with him..
i rmb the day when he pull my leg in Wild Wild Wet..
i rmb the day our hands jus met accidently..
i rmb the day i confess to him..
i rmb the day he blow up his temper..
i rmb the day i played the first badminton game with him..
i rmb the day his kindness touch my heart..
i rmb the day i spend my most happiest day with him..
but aniway..thanks god he nv avoid mi since then....which i dun wan..cus i hav lots of things to tok to him.. cant even say in one blog entry..
no one might xpect he was the one tt i m fallin with.. cus our character r far apart.. ?? maybe?
did he koe that i m worried n wan to look after him when he was sick that day.. did he? did he koe i was so afraid of him gettin more sick.. wan to concern him yet i nid to do it thru my fren..no longer hav the guts as a fren to sms him.. anything..did he koe tt i m veri shocked/surprised/happy when he sms mi himself when i was working..
xIaO mU gUa aKa xIaO hEi nIu! wO xI hUaN nI~
*ahem* nt the first time i told him le* =X
yipeeS-
